Late nights, lack of communication and disappointments.

Today wasn't a great day. I am constantly setting myself up for disappointment and I just don't get why I keep falling right back into this destructive cycle. I give Landon's dad chance after chance just hoping that maybe one day, he'll get it. He'll want to take every opportunity he is given. He'll put forth an effort. He'll care. Landon may not understand now but he will in just a short matter of time. If things stay the way they are, one day I'm going to be holding and trying my hardest to comfort my crying child because he thought he was going to get to see Daddy. I refuse to let that happen. 

For now, I will watch my baby boy sleep and hope that he is dreaming sweetly. I want the world for you Landon. I'll do anything to give it to you.